My Love.

This is Mandy, Zachary James Smith, went to be with Jesus at 3:05 p.m. on Sunday May 16th.  He is no longer in pain. The cancer has lost and Jesus has the victory in all of this. The battle has been won. I know you all loved Zac, and his presence is missed in our home. Please pray for peace and comfort for my family, as we now  figure out how to continue his story to the best of our ability. Watch out because those kids of ours, well let’s just say they have a lot of wisdom from Zac in those little heads.  I cannot wait to see what God has in store for them.

Death cannot take away what is already His. To God be the glory. Always.


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93 Responses to “My Love.”

  1. Jason says:

    You are an amazing woman. I’ll pray for you and your children. Shocked by your steadfast faith. God bless you.

    • Teralyn Dison says:

      Hi Mandy and family -

      You don’t know me, nor probably ever seen any of my posts, but Zac has really made an impact on my life. Your family’s Faith is the most awesome inspiring thing in life….and I am thankful for all I have learned from Zac and his writings and his posts and you all sharing your life. Thank you soo much for that.

      You will remain in my thoughts and prayers, and know you are never alone. You have a huge extended family here through this website, and we will always think of you.

      God’s Blessings,
      Thank you for sharing your family with me.


  2. Debbie says:

    Dear Mandy,
    You don’t know me, but I feel like you are part of my family because of my daughter Ashley and my son-and-law Brian. I have followed Zac’s story and I and many people have and will continue to smother you and the children in prayer. We love you guys and if there is anything you need, please let us know.

  3. I am 15 and this man is problly my idol to be goin threw all that pain and still be a great child of God! He inspired all of my youth group at Granite united when we saw his video by watching his father preech. I pray for there family and i want to say thank you Zac, and your family for inspiring people to love God no matter what.

  4. Shannon S says:

    You and your family are in my prayers. I feel selfish but I really wanted Zac’s story to be a story of physical healing here on Earth. My heart aches for your family and yet…

    God is still God and God is still good. To God be the glory.

  5. Gary Ashe says:

    I have never met Zac personally but he has been such an inspiration for me. I love his story. I love him as a brother in Christ. I will be praying for the family. Be strong and know that he is now home!

  6. The Ballenger Family, Michael and Juana says:

    We were praying for you and will continue to pray for your family.

    I have been blessed to know Zac, and we will keep you and your kids in our prayers.

    Zac has been a great witness for Christ!

    The Ballengers, Mike, Juana, Seth, Luke and Gracie

  7. Tonya says:

    Mandy, I am truely sorry for this loss. It is a gain in heaven but a loss on earth. Zac was truely a wonderful man who cared about so many people. He was fun, encouraging, and genuine. Mandy, you are also all of those things too. You are strong and courageous and I have no doubt in my mind that you and your children will prosper and continue his legacy. Know that many of us are praying for you and know that you are not alone in this struggle. Whether, we are in relationship with your simply praying for you, you are not alone. I pray that God’s presence will be stronger than ever.

  8. Michael says:

    Never met, but praying for you.

  9. Robbie says:

    Mandy, We pray for you and your family. Thank you and thanks to NewSpring for sharing Zac’s service online. I believe Zac’s video will inspire people for years to come.

    I’m done, Your not, Get to work – (Perry Noble speaking for Zac Smith)

  10. Jenn C says:

    Our family goes to Grace Community in Flagstaff, AZ. We’ve been touched and encouraged by your family’s faith as we’ve walked a hard road too. Zac’s video impacted us greatly, especially our five-year-old daughter Livvy. She carried his message through our trial. You and your kids will be in our thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing your journey.

  11. Elisabeth says:

    Praying you find Jesus in your boat, even in this storm.

  12. Deborah Wilson says:

    We have been praying for you and the kids. We will continue. . .

  13. Kristin Driver says:

    Mandy and Kids,

    Was able to watch the service today. It was great to see your family and think of fun memories. We love you guys! Thanks for being Jesus to us! Praying for you and grieving with you.

    Brandon and Kristin

  14. Jeanette says:


    Just loving you so much right now!! I will be praying for you and the kids everyday. Thank you for being who you are and teaching me so much from so far away. Your faith inspires me. I miss you and think of you so much. I’m so sorry.


  15. Lauren Kincaid says:

    Mandy, I’m so sorry to hear about the passing of your husband. I do not know him, but I found this blog a few months ago and have followed his journey. He has made a big impact on me – an impact I won’t soon forget. I will pray for you, for your children and for the rest of zac’s family and friends. God bless you.


  16. Amy says:

    I am sad …

  17. JoAnn Miller says:

    Praying in faith that God would help your family deal with this tremendous loss. So grateful that you know Jesus as the loving and amazing Savior that He is. You are loved!

    JoAnn Miller
    Macomb MI

  18. dawn says:

    I lost my mom to colon cancer five months ago. I am praying for you and your family in the “after”.

  19. Ellie T. says:

    What to say to you in this time…..

    I too am a wife of a warrior…..a spouse to someone battling cancer. And it is our faith, too, that has guided us on this unique journey. I want to tell you how I stumbled on your blog weeks ago and how many entries gave me comfort. God is still God and God is still good became my new mantra.

    My heart’s instinct is to feel such sorrow and loss for you. But I am really TRYING to be filled with joy… at the life your husband lived….joy at the true gifts he left you and the kids with….joy that you both found love in each other and deep love in the Lord (which some people never find even if they live to 90).

    Just know I am in awe of you all. I will keep you in my prayers.

    Ellie T. in Alabama

  20. Leah says:

    Mandy, I have been following your husband’s blog for a while now. I have prayed for your family and wept for you guys. I know that your faith is bringing you through this, and that the Lord has an amazing plan for your family. Please know so many people are praying for you and even when you feel so low, the Lord is your strength through all of this.

  21. Janie Bakke says:

    I am Herschel Horton’s cousin. He told me of your loss but heaven’s gain in bringing Zach into the presence of Jesus. Herschel’s testimony of what Zach meant to him moved me to tears and I am grateful for the blessings God provided to Herschel in the person of Zach. What a warrior and example Zach was. I pray for you as you pick up where Zach left off, in Gods divine plan. Blessings to you and your family.

  22. Tai, Carren, Traci & Nathaniel Chang says:

    Mandy, Jake, Lizzy, & Luke,
    I am so sorry for your loss and grieve with you that Zac is no longer amongst us. Although I only knew him for a little while before he left CA – I admired his devotion to serve the Lord Jesus first and his steadfastness in putting his family ahead of his career. God is truly good and used Zac’s love & encouragement to minister to his family, friends and co-workers for His glory. May the God of comfort & peace carry you through these times and may you find rest and hope in God’s promise that we will re-unite with our Lord and our loved ones in the future and we will never be separated again (1Thess. 4:16-17). My family & I are praying for you… in-Christ, TCTN

  23. Keith says:

    Mandy and dearest children,

    Your family has had a positive impact on our fellowship here in Germany. The smiles on your faces, the impact of Zac’s words, the beauty of Christ’s holiness – we have been touched deeply. Thank you for your transparency in a time of deep sorrow. Thank you for the example of your walk.


  24. Mama Dalton says:

    Mandy, I woke Sunday morning with this scripture on my mind. I had sent the second part to Zac when you guys were going to the mountains. Then, the second two were my daily devotion, and again he filled my thoughts and prayers. I think God was again talking to me specifically about Zac; I think I knew. Regardless, I believe these scriptures speak of him, and of God’s will through him, and of God’s care of him.

    No four could have been better prepared to wait to be with Zac in Eternity, and no four people will be more cared for while he waits for you.

    “As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth; it will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

    You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands.” Isaiah 55:12

    “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:21
    “…to shine on those living in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the path of peace.” Luke 1:79

  25. Jessica says:

    I lost my husband to cancer 12 weeks ago. He was only 25 years old. I can tell you first hand…God is going to do GREAT AWESOME WONDERFUL JOY-BRINGING things through this! It is an awful road to walk, but cling to Him – He is right there with you!

  26. Carolin says:

    I am sorry for your loss and pray that God will comfort you and your family during this time.

  27. Stacy says:

    Praying for your family! I stand in awe of Zac’s faith through his journey. Thankful he is now pain free.The song comes to mind “I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you, I’m crying for me.” I say this b/c he is where we all want to be one day and it those left on earth who need prayers now. In Christ, Stacy

  28. Fernando y Verónica Páez says:

    Mandy, My name is Verónica de Páez. I am from Quito, Ecuador.
    I lost my mom to cancer when I was twelve years old. My mom was only 34 years old when she died.
    Now, I am 38 years old. Romans 8:28 has been real in my life.
    God has an amazing plan for your family!
    Zac’s video impacted my church.
    In my church, the Iglesia Bíblica Bautista in Quito, we are praying for you, Lizzy, Jake and Luke. We are praying for Pastor Jim, Sharon and Stacey.
    We love your family!
    Verónica de Páez

  29. Thea says:

    We are praying…no doubt about it. My Dad has colon cancer, which we found out about 2 days after watching Zac’s video. Talk about heart preparation! Zac’s faith, courage and tender heart toward the Lord..his utter dependenc upon Him is a testimony and has had a huge impact on so many already. I continue to share your story with others and they are always touched by it…May the peace of God reign in your home.. Know that He dances over you…He sings over you…He holds you in His hands and He is victorious…now and always.

    Bless you all.
    Psalm 116


  30. kirk smith says:

    We don’t know each other but I went to school with Zac in Ecuador. My heart goes out to you and your family.

    We are praying for your guys.

  31. Sharon says:


    I will be praying for you and your family as you go through this time. I mostly knew Zac from elementary school at the Alliance Academy. We were in the same class. From reading this blog, I could see how much Zac loved you and your kids and wanted to do everything he could to be present with you as long as he could and to provide for you. The wisdom that God gave him to share with others was much appreciated. I’m sure that Zac’s testimony has touched the hearts of many people.

    God bless you and care for you and your three precious children.


  32. Carla says:

    Mandy and Kids,

    Zack and I attended the AAI in Quito years ago. I graduated class of 1992. I was not aware of his illness until some friends from Facebook posted his video. What an amazing story and an encouragement to all. Zack’s legacy will live on and we rejoice that he is in the presence of our maker. Our prayers are with you and your family.

    In Christ,

  33. Ransom says:

    Hi Mandy,
    I never met Zac but we’re praying for you and your kids. We’ve shared the video with all of our friends and want you to know that we will do so for a long time to come. Zac was an amazing man of God and we’re so thankful for his faithfulness.
    I was extremely blessed to hear Zac’s story.

    Thank you for sharing it and yielding yourself to be an instrument of God’s glory

  34. Marcos Mota says:

    Hello Mandy,

    We are a Brazilian family and that we follow the story of Zac here. We watch and spread the video on Youtube made by him and also put in our church, they were all amazed by his story and his entire family and then we saw we were rooting for his recovery, but unfortunately it was God’s will to carry it to be by his side. And to understand that he was better, as you yourself said, the cancer lost. We are praying for you here in Brazil and we hope in God that He will provide every comfort.

    In the love of Christ!

    Marcos, Maisa and Sarah Sophia

  35. kelley says:

    What a wonderful man and what a huge impact he made in this world!

    God blass you all, y’all are in my thoughts and prayers – Kelley

  36. Kristi says:

    Praying for your family. I’m so very sorry for your loss. I only came to find your blog recently, but Zac had amazing faith and was so inspiring. May God hold your family tightly in His comforting arms.

  37. Nancy says:

    Praying for you as you navigate these first lonely days with your children. I hope you’ll be able to feel some surprising moments of comfort from the Holy Spirit, and I pray that your grief and anger will be soothed eventually by the knowledge that you’ll see Zac again with Jesus.

  38. Lisa Poole says:

    Mandy and kids: May the peace that Zac had in the midst of all the suffering cover you all today and forever as you walk through this and see what God will do to still draw people to Him from Zac’s life and passing. I watch New Spring online, and heard about Zac today and watched the video of him on Perry’s blog and read some of Zac’s blog. The ones written about how to minister in the midst of your suffering really stretched and comforted me. Zac has shown by example that whatever God allows, we can still minister, even when stilled or more confined. Praying for all of you. What a reunion it will be someday in heaven for you all. In Christ- Lisa

  39. Cayla says:


    I’m hurting for you and the kids, and praying for the comfort that only God can provide amidst your sorrow. So thankful that God is still God, and God is still good.

  40. Dewayne says:

    God bless you and your family!!! Zac’s spirit & legacy lives on… Glory to God!

  41. Stefanie says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

  42. Malcolm says:

    I am very far away from you – in Sri Lanka – and yet watching your movie and Zac’s film made me realize that we are all combined by a family of humanity. May you and your family be blessed with the strength and smiles of a new sun and a new day. Wishing you all the very best…….

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