On Being Pruned
I know some smart people. One of them is my Uncle Mark, who happens to be visiting me at the moment. He pastors a church in Flagstaff, Arizona called Grace Community. He spoke earlier this week on a passage in John 15. This familiar passage provides an interesting perspective to my current situation.
John 15:1-2 — I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch of mine that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does not bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit.
I find it interesting that those of us who bear fruit are routinely pruned so that we may bear more fruit. Pruning is part of the process of health — the dictionary says that pruning is useful to remove superfluous growth. This metaphor really does work for us spiritually. Having some fruit is not enough — we are constantly being pruned to bear more fruit. I believe I am in a time of pruning.
A few weeks ago, I was told that I was cancer-free. Last week, I drove to Charleston to visit some doctors at MUSC. I had a CT scan and walked next door to the Hollings Cancer Center to wait for the results. The results were vastly different than I expected. It seems that something is back. Today I discovered the results of the latest PET scan.
I, once again, have cancer. My cancer is much like the Tusken Raiders: It is easily startled, but now it is back, and in greater numbers. The good news is that the tumors on my liver and spleen remain metabolically inactive. But I now also have metabolically active tumors in my peritoneum, the protective membrane around my organs. Unfortunately, having cancer in the peritoneal cavity is troublesome and difficult to treat. I have discussed this all with my oncologist and we will decide this weekend whether we will resume some form of chemotherapy.
Needless to say, this is sad news. Although it is dark, I trust God. I am not sure what this means for me and my future, but I am confident that God will receive glory through this. I said before that cancer was the best thing that has ever happened to me. That remains true. I care more about obeying God than trying to live as long as I can. May the pruning continue.
praying for you and your family man!
Zac, you are such an inspiration. I truly understand why Stacey says you are her hero. In the midst of my sadness for everything you and your family are going through, you still lift me up and make me smile because of your unwavering faith and reliance on God. You are His light, and He IS glorified through your words, your actions and your trust in Him. You all remain in our prayers. Oh, in case you don’t remember who I am – I worked in El Inca with your mom in Quito, and also was at Precious Miracles many times. You have an amazing family.
Hi Zac,
I am sad that the news is not better, but glad you are giving God the glory. You’re a tough kid and a great father and a sweet nephew! We will continue to pray. Enjoy Uncle Mark and Aunt Laurie, glad they are there! I love you, Barbara
Hey Zac,
Wow! I am SO sorry. Along with so many others I am amazed at your faith and trust in this very difficult journey. Please know we are praying for you, Mandy and the kids. God is great and God is good…..we prayed that over food. I think it stands true in all things. Much love and blessing and may the peace of God guard your hearts!
Wanda
Zac,
We know your family, but not you. I am so glad you are connected to the True Vine. Please know we are all praying for you. We rejoiced at the earlier news and now we weep with you and yours at this news, but know that the True Vine in whom you are abiding will nourish and provide all you need in this time.
Steve and Pam Workman
Hey Zac,
Again, I’m sorry to hear the cancer is back. Your attitude towards all this never ceases to amaze. Praying for you and your family. I’m happy for you that you have such a loving family at home and at NewSpring that is caring for you and praying with you.
You remain in our prayers. I do not envy you any of this, especially the roller coaster aspect of things. You are one amazing man. love you, patty and the rest.
We’re praying for you and your family.
I know a lot of people that know exactly what to say in any given situation. I, however, am not one of them. As always, as your story unfolds I will be keeping track. Maybe I’ll comment here and there, but until I walk in your shoes I cannot imagine what I could write in this little space that would really put a smile on your face and make you feel better.
Well, okay – I’ve got a little something. My daughter is almost three. A while back we were outside and she looked up at the moon. It was a crescent moon that night so her first response was “look mommy! The moon is broken!” Then she stood on her toes and reached as high as she could and said, “ugh! I can’t reach it. We better get a ladder.” I smiled and told her she was right.
Funny, I never imagined I’d make it to the moon. Now I know all I need is a very tall ladder. Simple.
[...] As I said last week, cancer is back. I, together with Mandy and my oncologist, have decided to resume a chemotherapy regimen. It will start next Monday. [...]
Hi Zac, I just read your blog. My husband, Mark, and I have you in our prayers. Thank you for your testimony even as you may face some difficult days ahead. I am touched by your attitude and encouraged. Sincerely, Michelle
P.S. We are missionaries in the Philippines and we are good friends with Gary and Jeanie Phillips and Steve and Pam Workman.
Hello Zach,
Bob and I are missionaries in the Philippines and want you to know we are praying for you. Isa. 43:2,3. We are Gary’s parents.
Zac,
I am Gary Phillips son-in-law. I was recently diagnosed with cancer. What an amazing journey this is. I know full well the joys, fears and frustrations that come with this journey. I had another tumor removed from my shoulder yesterday and we await once again the results of the tests. Aw the joys of learning how to be still and wait. I pray for you and your family.